The Domesticated Diva

                SUMMER.IS.OVER. I won't even waste time and have you read for 5 minutes before you wonder what they are. SUMMER.IS.OVER.  I am so very thankful for those 3 little words. I am losing my shizit. Some woman are cut out to be home all day with the kids and they are happy to do so. I am,to a point, then I feel like I'm losing it. Im over the summer . OVER IT.         I Looooooove my babies. I can often be borderline obsessed with their cute little selves. I am with them all the time , 24/7. I am thankful and very grateful to be able to do so, but at the same time, HOT DAMN! The bickering, the fighting,the constant entertaining. The disgusting heat of the south this time of year can give you a case of cabin fever. Which, by the way, does not help with entertaining kids who like to be outside and on the go ALL THE TIME.        I would be lying if  said I wouldn't miss them at all. But...

           About a year ago to the day, I went to the jewelry store to have my bridal set serviced. This is routine every 6 months for insurance purposes and part of the warranty plan. So no big deal. I drop the rings off and then in a day or 2 I head back there to pick them up . They would be nice and shiny like the day I got them. I would stare at them just the same way as I did 10 years ago when I first saw them . I would always think about the day, my now husband, took me to the jewelry store . I was totally shocked. He said how about we go to look at rings so I have an idea for what you like for the future. I was so excited and giddy and just blown away. I tried on all the rings , all shapes and sizes. I learned what I liked as well as what I didn't like.  I am a pretty trendy person but I learned that day there are some things that I just love classic and timeless.I didn't know when he would propose but i knew it was coming and that was enough fo...

Tomorrow is Mothers Day! And quite frankly, I'm scared shitless. I love my family. I love the effort they make to try to make me feel special and honored on this day. It just never goes as planned. As I sit here , ridden with anxiety for what disaster will take place tomorrow, I reflect on last years Mothers Day spectacular . We live in an area rich with outside activities. Everyone has a boat, or a kayak or someway to access all of our beautiful waterways.  I love going out kayaking and have the dolphins come right up to me . There is something so magical about seeing a dolphin in the wild. I love being out there and looking around at what an amazing beautiful place I live in. The sunsets are this amazing pink and purple cotton candy looking sky shows that take my breath away and seeing it from on the water makes it that much more beautiful . I see these families out on the waterways and they are looking like they are really enjoying life. I couldn't wait for t...

            40 million people in this country have anxiety , and I am one of them. So I guess that makes me part of the norm ? I don't know. Anyhoo, at this point it is just a part of me. I will probably always have it. I deal with it. It doesn't pop in everyday and for the most part I can keep it under "control". I have coping skills and things that work for me such as deep breathing, running ( which I call crazy runs), yoga, etc. I have lots of quirks because of it. I won't take medications.It has taken me 41 years to take a children's Claritan. I do not under any circumstances drive over big bridges. And I can never ever live in the mountains as I cannot even think about high mountain cliff roads.  I am a what-iffer. If I am faced with something that makes me uncomfortable I will what-if it to death. What if the car breaks down on top of this super high bridge and I have to log roll all the way to the bottom while holding onto the kids? What if I ge...

Sophia. My biggest challenge. The one who is most like me out of all 4 of my kids. She is super smart, very compassionate about things she cares about. She does not back down. Most times when I look at her , even when her head is spinning , I am so incredibly proud of the strong person that she is. Other times I just want to and hunker down and cry. Its hard folks. Its hard to reprimand someone who is just like you.I get her feelings and sometimes she doesn't always know how to deal with them, Hell, neither do I! I  too,am a very strong willed person.  We feel everything x's a thousand. We love with everything we have . I am fiercely loyal if I love you. When we are betrayed or hurt , it is worse than a death. We are dramatic.Most people love us but we are a rather hard breed and don't really let people in too close. If we do, you are something special. We had a zoo outing today. I am a troop leader for her Girl scout troop.I love that I can do this with her,I LOVE all of ...

      SOOOOOO the head noodle in charge canned me ..Do I tell people ? What do I say? It is pretty funny if you think about it , I laughed at it so its ok. Chuckle away. I had a lot of people ask me if it was because of the blog. I don't think it was. I didn't have any common friends with them on face book or in life .  I also blocked them all on face book prior to this. But It is odd. I had a very positive review last week. A lot of " you're a great fit~you are a hard worker". Friday she comes in my office to tell me again, you are a great worker, we are thankful for all of your hard work. But we let your go. umm what ? Naturally I asked if there was a reason why or if something went wrong. That was simply followed by "NO" . Not a smile, not a crack of any life( hence the noodle reference) . It is slightly humiliating. I did not love it there. I did not have any sort of future there. Which is one of the reasons why I didn't love it there . It served...

So I read this article online this morning from another blogger about choosing parenthood over career advancement .Essentially it is about working to sustain your life but not over achieving to get that big promotion or raise so you can have a better home life and time with your kids. It is choosing to not invest your all into your job ,but to your family. Obviously, most people have to work. I work full time as well as my husband. I was able to stay home for quite a while with kiddos and I'm so very thankful to that. Going back to work was exciting and sad for me. Excited to have adult conversations , loosen the purse strings and have time outside of the home .Staying home is so very hard. There is no pay, you are over worked, your bosses are mini little tyrants at times and you cannot say screw this shit and quit.So its challenging. But for us , my kids are a little older now and this is what is working for my family. I was also Sad for obvious reasons. I loooove my kids. I am s...

I must say I had quite the amazing weekend! We had a visitor . Not just any visitor, but my Pankatoots came to visit. We are days away from any family, like Oregon and NJ . We do not get visitors very often so when we do, we value it so much and it's so precious to us. Pankatoots has been part of our lives for over 10 years from when i first moved to Virginia from NJ. We met when she noticed my moving trucks never came with my belongings. Why you may ask  ? Because this is me and nothing ever goes right. So much so that when it does I'm very leery and it makes me VERY uncomfortable. ANYHOO I was sitting in my duplex apartment (connected to hers) and she knocked on the door with beach chairs, pork and beans and hot dogs. We have been friends ever since. We have supported each other thru ALOT. She was in the hospital when I had both of my littles. She helped named my only son. She and her family have become my family. She loves my kids and is as protective of them as she is her ...

Sooo what started off as an innocent trip to the store with kiddo #2, ended in one of THE most awkward ~ifeelsobadforyou~ moments of my life. I am pretty used to being the one that things happen to and letting it roll off and laughing about it.. Now I know what everyone else around me feels when they observe the not so normal shenanigans that seem to follow me . Odd to be on the other end of it .   In this house, with 4 girls, we are pretty into hair trends and fashion . Someone is ALWAYS switching things up with their hair ,compliments of my favorite beauty school drop out, moi !  I do save us a lot of money by doing it at home so thats the plus side. So for our latest adventure in hair evolution , kiddo #2 and I head to the store to get supplies.  I pick out our goodies, make small talk with the girls who work there who pretty much know me by now as this is a regular stop for me . We head up to the register to pay and are next in line. The woman in front of us pays an...

Hey world! I am very excited to start this new venture with you all. First off, I have no clue what I am doing. I have never blogged before,so there's that .  What I do know is that I absolutely love to make the people around me laugh (I m so freaking good at it) I am almost always inappropriate in the best possible way. Anyhoo,  I am lost and confused and excited and giddy to share my life and stories with you all .I hope the chaos that is my "average" life, will make you laugh until you cry and feel "normal" about your average life .I hope we can all support one another and encourage each other to be the best versions of ourselves that we can possibly be.