The Domesticated Diva

Shits getting real folks. Tomorrow I will load my family in the car to go on a 7-hour road trip to be on Baby watch 2019. For those of you that don't know,( you obviously live under a rock because my life screams drama ) my 2nd daughter is about to have a baby at any given moment. We knew this was coming for 9 months. She is far away, shes come to visit, we had the beautiful baby shower for her, and now, its go time.   Today, I spent the day running errands, gathering car snacks, packing suitcases, packing my bag of things to pass the time while at the hospital, all the good stuff that comes along with going out of town. And it hit me. Like all at once. Yes, I knew this was coming, What goes in must come out right? Yes, I am excited and cannot wait for my newest little princess to get here. I picked out a fun name for my new little loved one to call me months ago. Then I started really thinking about this. HOLY SHIT, I AM A GRANDMOTHER. I am not wearing sweater vests or applique

               Soooo this is a touchy subject and I am just going to dive right on in and give you a little back story as to why I want to really have a discussion about body shaming. This last week, my family and I went on a vacation. It was amazing. We played in the ocean, ate a ton of amazon seafood, slept in everyday, and spent some amazing family down time together. On our way home , we stopped at an Ikea. We don't have one locally so when we get a chance to pop on into one, we (I) jump all over that. Who doesn't LOVE Ikea?              So we get there, the kids are super excited because they love that play land and mom and dad can stroll around that majestic store of home junk. We go to sign the kids in, (Sophia 7, Donovan 6) and Sophia is asked to stand next to the heigh requirement sign . She's right on the cusp of 54 inches. Had her hair had been down she would of been right under or exact.  I get it , She is a very tall 7 year old girl. Who, at this time in her

                SUMMER.IS.OVER. I won't even waste time and have you read for 5 minutes before you wonder what they are. SUMMER.IS.OVER.  I am so very thankful for those 3 little words. I am losing my shizit. Some woman are cut out to be home all day with the kids and they are happy to do so. I am,to a point, then I feel like I'm losing it. Im over the summer . OVER IT.         I Looooooove my babies. I can often be borderline obsessed with their cute little selves. I am with them all the time , 24/7. I am thankful and very grateful to be able to do so, but at the same time, HOT DAMN! The bickering, the fighting,the constant entertaining. The disgusting heat of the south this time of year can give you a case of cabin fever. Which, by the way, does not help with entertaining kids who like to be outside and on the go ALL THE TIME.        I would be lying if  said I wouldn't miss them at all. But I also would be lying if I said I wasn't excited for school to start. It

           About a year ago to the day, I went to the jewelry store to have my bridal set serviced. This is routine every 6 months for insurance purposes and part of the warranty plan. So no big deal. I drop the rings off and then in a day or 2 I head back there to pick them up . They would be nice and shiny like the day I got them. I would stare at them just the same way as I did 10 years ago when I first saw them . I would always think about the day, my now husband, took me to the jewelry store . I was totally shocked. He said how about we go to look at rings so I have an idea for what you like for the future. I was so excited and giddy and just blown away. I tried on all the rings , all shapes and sizes. I learned what I liked as well as what I didn't like.  I am a pretty trendy person but I learned that day there are some things that I just love classic and timeless.I didn't know when he would propose but i knew it was coming and that was enough for me. I picked the most pe

Tomorrow is Mothers Day! And quite frankly, I'm scared shitless. I love my family. I love the effort they make to try to make me feel special and honored on this day. It just never goes as planned. As I sit here , ridden with anxiety for what disaster will take place tomorrow, I reflect on last years Mothers Day spectacular . We live in an area rich with outside activities. Everyone has a boat, or a kayak or someway to access all of our beautiful waterways.  I love going out kayaking and have the dolphins come right up to me . There is something so magical about seeing a dolphin in the wild. I love being out there and looking around at what an amazing beautiful place I live in. The sunsets are this amazing pink and purple cotton candy looking sky shows that take my breath away and seeing it from on the water makes it that much more beautiful . I see these families out on the waterways and they are looking like they are really enjoying life. I couldn't wait for t

            40 million people in this country have anxiety , and I am one of them. So I guess that makes me part of the norm ? I don't know. Anyhoo, at this point it is just a part of me. I will probably always have it. I deal with it. It doesn't pop in everyday and for the most part I can keep it under "control". I have coping skills and things that work for me such as deep breathing, running ( which I call crazy runs), yoga, etc. I have lots of quirks because of it. I won't take medications.It has taken me 41 years to take a children's Claritan. I do not under any circumstances drive over big bridges. And I can never ever live in the mountains as I cannot even think about high mountain cliff roads.  I am a what-iffer. If I am faced with something that makes me uncomfortable I will what-if it to death. What if the car breaks down on top of this super high bridge and I have to log roll all the way to the bottom while holding onto the kids? What if I get on tha