The Domesticated Diva

            40 million people in this country have anxiety , and I am one of them. So I guess that makes me part of the norm ? I don't know. Anyhoo, at this point it is just a part of me. I will probably always have it. I deal with it. It doesn't pop in everyday and for the most part I can keep it under "control". I have coping skills and things that work for me such as deep breathing, running ( which I call crazy runs), yoga, etc. I have lots of quirks because of it. I won't take medications.It has taken me 41 years to take a children's Claritan. I do not under any circumstances drive over big bridges. And I can never ever live in the mountains as I cannot even think about high mountain cliff roads.  I am a what-iffer. If I am faced with something that makes me uncomfortable I will what-if it to death. What if the car breaks down on top of this super high bridge and I have to log roll all the way to the bottom while holding onto the kids? What if I ge...

Sophia. My biggest challenge. The one who is most like me out of all 4 of my kids. She is super smart, very compassionate about things she cares about. She does not back down. Most times when I look at her , even when her head is spinning , I am so incredibly proud of the strong person that she is. Other times I just want to and hunker down and cry. Its hard folks. Its hard to reprimand someone who is just like you.I get her feelings and sometimes she doesn't always know how to deal with them, Hell, neither do I! I  too,am a very strong willed person.  We feel everything x's a thousand. We love with everything we have . I am fiercely loyal if I love you. When we are betrayed or hurt , it is worse than a death. We are dramatic.Most people love us but we are a rather hard breed and don't really let people in too close. If we do, you are something special. We had a zoo outing today. I am a troop leader for her Girl scout troop.I love that I can do this with her,I LOVE all of ...

      SOOOOOO the head noodle in charge canned me ..Do I tell people ? What do I say? It is pretty funny if you think about it , I laughed at it so its ok. Chuckle away. I had a lot of people ask me if it was because of the blog. I don't think it was. I didn't have any common friends with them on face book or in life .  I also blocked them all on face book prior to this. But It is odd. I had a very positive review last week. A lot of " you're a great fit~you are a hard worker". Friday she comes in my office to tell me again, you are a great worker, we are thankful for all of your hard work. But we let your go. umm what ? Naturally I asked if there was a reason why or if something went wrong. That was simply followed by "NO" . Not a smile, not a crack of any life( hence the noodle reference) . It is slightly humiliating. I did not love it there. I did not have any sort of future there. Which is one of the reasons why I didn't love it there . It served...